A night of sleeplessness

Well it's about 11:30 pm here in Loveland, and I just can't get to sleep. I've got a lot on my mind, and feel like it's the night before Christmas. Alex and I are going to look at a house in Fort Collins around 9 o'clock tomorrow morning, and I'm worried we won't get it. Finding a house in Fort Collins is appearing to be a difficult task at this time. It's definitely a renters market here, so that leaves us with little negotiating power, if any at all. This is difficult, since we just rented our house out in Boise, and I would say our tenant had a pretty smooth deal; well, thanks to Tammi, our property manager. The thing about Fort Collin houses is that we either don't like the location the house is in, it's not nice on the inside, they don't take dogs or they won't allow Norman, since apparently Great Danes are considered a restricted breed if the owner so chooses, or the house is four bedrooms, three baths and is $1600 a month. So we want a nice house on the outside and decent on the inside, at least the same quality as our Boise home, a fenced yard, they take two dogs that has a refundable pet deposit, around 2 - 3 bedrooms, for about $1200 - $1400, and we think we found this house.

We drove by tonight and really liked the outside, and the inside pictures looked good as well. They are having an open house tomorrow, so we're planning on being there sharply at 9 am, which is a task in itself for me to be somewhere on time. The thing is, I can be all stomach-in-knots tonight and the moment I walk through that door, my hopes could come crashing down. I feel confident about the house, but just afraid it'll already be spoken for by the time we are there. I know right?! Seriously it's just a house... it just would be nice to have one thing sorted out, because the apartment living is fine, just totally different from living in the house.

I'm missing Boise like crazy, especially my friends. I miss the atmosphere, the mountains that surround Boise, the weather, the close proximity to everything, the ability to get non-dairy sour cream easily (yeah, that really is an issue), my job, my family, and again, my friends. It being the first two weeks, the feelings are really intense, and I'm getting really down about it. I do enjoy Colorado so far. The food is good, the Fort Collins downtown scene is bustling, the clouds are amazing, the summer night thunderstorms (you were right Lindsey), being able to share this experience with Alex, and the ever so slightly summer breeze is enjoyable. The only reason Colorado is slightly less enjoyable is due to me missing Boise so much, and with the elevation difference, running is a whole heck of a lot harder, and being a home maker, which has been confirmed that Alex would not benefit from in any sort of extended period of time. Dinner is never done when Alex comes home and the house is usually a mess, along with laundry not being done, but Alex is such a good sport, so much better than I have ever been. I know I can love it here, it'll just take some time for me to find my niche.

So maybe the house isn't such a big deal...


Peace out yo's!

Amber D.